BLEAAAAAAACKHHH! MOST UNIMPRESSIVE GRASSHOPPER

I went to Karaoke last night at the bowling alley. I'd like to say I had fun, but truth be told It was kinda boring. Not that I didn't enjoy the company, It was nice to see friends. It's just not a place I can belong. I was also very dissapointed with my own song selection. I picked a song that I remembered hearing on the radio because I liked the tune. And it ended up depressing me all night. It's a song called "Harder to Breath" The lyrics are as follows:

"How dare you say that my behavior is unacceptable
So condescending unnecessarily critical
I have the tendency of getting very physical
So watch your step cause if I do you'll need a miracle

You drain me dry and make me wonder why I'm even here
This Double Vision I was seeing is finally clear
You want to stay but you know very well I want you gone
Not fit to (edit) tread the ground that I'm walking on

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I sayThere's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe

What you are doing is screwing things up inside my head
You should know better you never listened to a word I said
Clutching your pillow and writhing in a naked sweat
Hoping somebody someday will do you like I did

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe

Does it kill Does it burn Is it painful to learn That it's me that has all the control
Does it thrill Does it sting When you feel what I bring
And you wish that you had me to hold

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I sayThere's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe is there anyone out there cuz its gettin harder and harder to breathe."

After I sang it I just felt dirty.
I was dissapointed for a few reasons. First the obvious, the lyrics are downright hatefull. Second, I sang it pretty darn well. Third,and most dissapointing, was that ,way down deep, a small part of me really felt good about it. But this was NOT a song that glorifies God in any way, shape or form. In a nutshell the song says. "Don't you dare try to talk to me, You're gonna want me back and when you do, I'll be glad to see you in pain." WHAT THE HECK! That's not love at all! What happened to patient, kind, not rude or selfish, keeps no record of wrongs ect.? Anyway the song had a grip on me all night and was really starting to bug me. But it was a good wake up call to deal with suppressed feelings. Having to deal with that was a good thing. God is good and I'm forgiven, but wow, what a weird situation and what a waste of a great melody.

(p.s. In my defence: I did not know all the lyrics to this song when I picked it and really didn't think about it before hand.)